waiting for the thing i know will never come
he will never surrender to me peacefully,
they always prefer to be mistreated
so later,
they can look back and say,
i was as good a man as i could have been.

but is it still being as good as can be
when the efforts are wasted away on trivialities?

heart jumps at the thought,
exhale at the reality, it is still nothing.
it is full of tincan wishes
kickiing down an empty street,
rattling like bones.